Very soon after I went to live with Mr. and Mrs. Auld, she very kindly commenced to teach me the A, B, C. After I had learned this, she assisted me in learning
to spell words of three or four letters. Just at this point of my progress, Mr. Auld
found out what was going on, and at once forbade Mrs. Auld to instruct me further,
telling her, among other things, that it was unlawful, as well as unsafe, to teach a
slave to read. To use his own words, further, he said, “If you give a nigger an inch, he
will take an ell. A nigger should know nothing but to obey his master—to do as he is
told to do. Learning would spoil the best nigger in the world. Now,” said he, “if you
teach that nigger (speaking of myself) how to read, there would be no keeping him. It
would forever unfit him to be a slave. He would at once become unmanageable, and
of no value to his master. As to himself, it could do him no good, but a great deal of
harm. It would make him discontented and unhappy.” These words sank deep into my
heart, stirred up sentiments within that lay slumbering, and called into existence an
entirely new train of thought. It was a new and special revelation, explaining dark and
mysterious things, with which my youthful understanding had struggled, but struggled in vain. I now understood what had been to me a most perplexing difficulty—to
wit, the white man's power to enslave the black man. It was a grand achievement,
and I prized it highly. From that moment, I understood the pathway from slavery to
freedom. It was just what I wanted, and I got it at a time when I the least expected
it. Whilst I was saddened by the thought of losing the aid of my kind mistress, I was
gladdened by the invaluable instruction which, by the merest accident, I had gained
from my master. Though conscious of the difficulty of learning without a teacher, I
set out with high hope, and a fixed purpose, at whatever cost of trouble, to learn how
to read. The very decided manner with which he spoke, and strove1 to impress his
wife with the evil consequences of giving me instruction, served to convince me that
he was deeply sensible of the truths he was uttering2 . It gave me the best assurance
that I might rely3 with the utmost confidence on the results which, he said, would
flow from teaching me to read. What he most dreaded4 , that I most desired. What
he most loved, that I most hated. That which to him was a great evil, to be carefully
shunned5 , was to me a great good, to be diligently sought6 ; and the argument which
he so warmly urged, against my learning to read, only served to inspire me with a
desire and determination to learn. In learning to read, I owe almost as much to the
bitter opposition of my master, as to the kindly aid of my mistress. I acknowledge
the benefit of both.
I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before I observed a marked difference,
in the treatment of slaves, from that which I had witnessed in the country. A city
slave is almost a freeman, compared with a slave on the plantation. He is much better
fed and clothed, and enjoys privileges altogether unknown to the slave on the plantation. There is a vestige of decency, a sense of shame, that does much to curb and
check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so commonly enacted upon the plantation.
He is a desperate slaveholder, who will shock the humanity of his non-slaveholding
neighbors with the cries of his lacerated slave. Few are willing to incur the odium7 attaching to the reputation of being a cruel master; and above all things, they would
not be known as not giving a slave enough to eat. Every city slaveholder is anxious to
have it known of him, that he feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them to say, that
most of them do give their slaves enough to eat. There are, however, some painful exceptions to this rule. Directly opposite to us, on Philpot Street, lived Mr. Thomas
Hamilton. He owned two slaves. Their names were Henrietta and Mary. Henrietta was
about twenty-two years of age, Mary was about fourteen; and of all the mangled and
emaciated8 creatures I ever looked upon, these two were the most so.